Lent, Day 19: Can fear be deliberate?

Do we choose to be afraid? Not things like bugs, heights, or small spaces. But fear of rejection, the future, the unknown or uncontrollable... Doesn't God tell us He's got it ALL under control, it's ALL in His more than capable hands? So why do we worry? Why are we so afraid of what might happen? Or if what He promised will actually happen? It's something I struggle with because I want to feel in control of my situation, my life. But none of us are ever completely in control, if we were it would be a very different world I think. Pastor Zack prayed that God help us overcome our willfull fear this morning and it opened my eyes to my own willfull anxieties. And that reminded me of how He really is my friend that exposes and teaches. I know He is teaching me how to live without fear, in fact He's already told me that is a huge part of my journey to and during school in Australia. Not to mention that my favorite verse has always been 1 John 4:18: "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."