So lately I’ve been extremely inspired. Inspired to sing, to laugh, to cry, to draw, to create… to write. In a time when I know I should be weighed down and stressed out, the God of hope has filled me up and made my heart light! And guess what, I had very little to do with it! In fact, I’ve been so wrapped up in myself as of late that I’ve hardly spoken with Him, hardly looked at His Word, and hardly put up a fight when tempted. But tonight He spoke so clearly to me that I have to respond...
I can no longer hide. I can no longer hide behind my weight, no longer eat & live to gain, because just under 300 lbs is close enough for me (a little too close actually). I can no longer hide behind a hard, sarcastic wit that keeps me from being hurt. I can no longer hide behind a secretive, defiant personal life. And I can no longer hide behind a soft-spoken, quiet-lived faith. Because Jesus freed me from the bonds of sin and death, I must live a life boasting His glory! So I long to treat my body as a temple – healthy and pure. I long to be open, frank, genuine, and transparent with everyone I meet, remembering that perfect love expels the fear of rejection. I long to live obedient to God’s Word and direction, doing nothing that needs to be kept secret. And I long to proclaim His grace, His mercy, His power, and His love to the world!! With His message to “stop hiding” I understand now that must stop living only according to head knowledge of His promises, and start truly taking them to heart. I must finally lay claim to the name He spoke over me what seems like so many years ago: I am Innocent Grace Sugarfoot, child of the Lord of Heaven’s Armies! Amen.
