Phoenix Log

So, I had thought about starting another blog called "Phoenix Log." It'd just be the thoughts & intrigues of the "superhero"; a semi-fictional take on the spiritual battles of everyday life. But I'm not sure that it's such a good idea, considering I have a hard time keeping up with one blog. Anyway, here's an entry for Phoenix Log, let me know what you think...

After gaining the victory over a tiny, yet troublesome battle in this great war, I pray that I can, once and for all, leave self contempt at the door. I have fought her and fought her, always thinking "Never again!" But Contempt always crawls back for more. She's quite cunning at being normal, a seemingly simple motivational tool. I know all the words to beat her down, and with the authority of the Spirit, His sword swings ever true. But, where do I draw the line of being always content, but never satisfied? How do I strive for the best me there can be AND love me as I am? I guess this is where the full armor of God comes in handy. Though I think Paul may have missed a piece, for I often need "goggles of grace" so I can look my self in the face.

~PF

My apologies...

So, my computer died... in November. And, over the last few months I have realized that it's quite hard for me to blog on the family PC. The whole idea that someone could read this over my shoulder is daunting, which is funny considering this is available for the world to read. And it's all about freedom, truth, beauty and love, so what am I trying to hide anyway. It's just that most of my writing is very personal and I've deluded myself that no one is really reading this anyway, even though I secretly hope that's not true. ;)

All that to say, sorry for not updating for over three months! I'm back! With more to say and, hopefully, with more images too. Here are my thoughts after reading John 12 during my church's creative worship service on Sunday...

I love that in verse 2 of John 12 it says that Lazarus reclined at the table with Jesus. This is the same Lazarus that Jesus had recently raised from the dead. How often do we just sit, recline, and join Jesus at the table, resting in His presence? Don't we usually fill our time with to do lists? Especially after being faced with death? Most people would have made a "bucket list" and went out to check off all the activities they want to do before permanently dying. I wonder how many write "wait on God" or "rest in the presence of the Lord" on their bucket list. But, why not? You would think it would be the most thrilling thing to do: drink in some living water. I think Lazarus had it right.

Forget Martha & Mary, I want to be like Lazarus - thanking Jesus for saving my life by resting at His table!