Okay, so I have not completely given up my romantic notions as some call them. Let's face it, I would be a very different person if I did. But instead of desperately obsessing over a husband, I have begun to delve into God's romantic heart for me. Instead of thinking of prayer and reading the Word as an obligation that I should make a habit, I have begun to see it as a rendezvous with my love. And instead of praying as though I'm speaking to a friend, I converse with my bridegroom. This has done wonders for me! Though I still sometimes daydream of my life with my future husband, I am not constantly obsessing over it. I can face the day knowing I am loved, sought after, and longed for, and that that will never change.
Some may say, and I'll admit I struggled with it too, how can I resolve a desire for a husband with a "romantic" relationship with Christ. Well, while this concept does still baffle me, I do have some thoughts on the matter. God invented marriage as a means for us to further understand both the Holy Trinity and one of the many ways He relates to us. So it follows that experiencing the bonds of earthly marriage will only strengthen my grasp on my relationship with Christ. Also, and this is probably my oddest revelation on the subject, but my "romance" with Him is unique in that it wants to be shared. I know that sounds wrong, but it is a reminder of the trinity again. (This revelation really has me wondering how guys relate to God as the lover of their soul - something I've contemplated for a long time!) And lastly, God knows, and I feel safe in saying He even placed, that desire in my heart. I know that it is part of His will for me, but I am grateful that He is with me for the journey both before and after Mr. Right comes our way! ;)
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