All Things

God is good. All the time. He kind of took over my night and I haven't slept much - good thing I can sleep in today... Anyway, tonight/last night as I was trying to go to bed the Holy Spirit reminded me that I had wanted to look through an old journal for a particular entry to help me with a message I'm planning for our teen girls later this summer. Well, I got a little wrapped up in reading page after page - this journal is about six years old, but it's full of notes from amazing sermons and some interesting life decisions as I was finishing my senior year in college. Anyway, I came across this entry from March 1, 2007 and the truth of who God is hit me so hard I was bawling! I love the way it reads as I wrote it, so I've posted a pic of the handwritten entry. But, as my handwriting can get sketchy when I'm journaling, I've also typed it exactly as it's written here:

Romans 8:38 & 39
All things are pulling me... I'm drawn to some and repelled by others, I'm ripped into a million pieces and scattered all over the things in my world. People demand, time wastes, my body destroys... all things seem to work against me. As I fly into a storm, into the breathless sky, I am wallowing in a deep pit of despair and know not the meaning of light!
But, oh there are good things too... beauty peace and rest. Glory of a job well done, the love of friends & family, the promise of heaven in the end. Chocolate and sleep, a great book; the feeling of your presence! Oh God, you are mighty and lovely and pure! And even as I am stretched like a rubber band at the brink of snapping; or a spider web so heavy delicate the spider would break it... you love even me! Thank you God, you love me!
                                  neither height---->                 nor depth
You are the sunrise & the sunset, you are the stars & the moon. You are the height & the depth, the east and the west, the north and the south. You are the earth and the sun, you are breath and water, fire and ice, war & peace, adrenaline & rest. Hope and faithfulness, joy and gladness... discipline and praise, blessing and consequence... You are all these things, you are ALL THINGS! AND MORE!! You are love and love is EVERYTHING TO ALL THINGS... it is a power we cannot fathom, a power that surrounds us, even when we feel deserted. Because, nothing, NO THING!! can separate us from love... from YOU!