Phoenix Log 2

I know it's been a long time... Sorry about that. I guess the holidays made everything busy. (Happy New Year btw!) And I started a new job (woohoo!), along with designing a collection. So, my down time has been pretty busy. Anyway, I am working on something new, but in the meantime I wanted to give an update and post something fun. I wrote this a long while ago and I've been back and forth with whether or not to share it. But, as it kind of pertains to a personal struggle I'm dealing with right now, I really feel like I should share, so here goes. This is another Phoenix Log, the only other one I've written. Maybe I should work on some more...

I don't think most people would guess my secrets. There are things about me that the people who see me everyday, at work, at church, may not understand. They'd say something like, "She's too young to be bitter. And, besides, her life hasn't been bad, it's quite good in fact." But not every bitter woman has been beaten, rejected, or abandoned. Sometimes a girl can see a path she likes, can admire someone, or something, so much that when she doesn't reach her lofty goals, in her time, on her terms, she breaks. She may turn to things or emotions or people to fill her, to comfort her (for me it's food or isolation). But this only fuels her bitterness because it does not help her reach the goal, she can never redeem herself. What can I do in this pit of deep despair, but cry out to God? I must seek Him desperately and cling to His word. I must turn on the lamp at my feet and learn that the joy of the Lord, truly, is my strength!

~PF

Also something I wrote awhile back, but it still pertains to my current struggles (I love how the Holy Spirit works!): All to often I get lost in a sea of time, only to remember God's vision is clearer than mine!